SpiritMaa

this one was different than most of my holotropic breathwork experiences. maybe because it needed to be? maybe because my right arm was injured and needed to stay immobile? sure there was some outward kriya movement, at the beginning especially, but less than usual. and my arms were at mostly at rest. however, i felt pulsations from an early point along my left arm, and focused in the palm. i also experienced internal vibrations, and they reverberated from one part of my system to another. sometimes the chest vibrating. at least once, my neck. sometimes the solar plexus or sacral region. sometimes my whole body (especially near the end). with this intense miniature vibration... like everything was being rocked by pulsation, but on the inner plane. i called on the beings of greatest love to heal me... i felt physical hunger, and then turned that into hunger for Maa.... when my face became heavy and grimacing, there was only relief when i started making a keening sound that went along with the music. later i seemed to stop breathing... after a while my consciousness noticed this and i thought - i'm human, i have to breathe - and 'i' would take a big breath... but it continued happening - i was really out there (or in there) but there was no content (and little breath (!)... when the music soared (and regular breathing had resumed), i felt my heart opening, and once or twice found the words in my head - blessed be all beings... near the end i wanted to lie rigid (very unusual), but my eyes were moving back and forth so quickly, and there were stars and pulsations inside my head... throughout the session kali's eyes were there too (inside my head), every time i took a full breath, and once or twice i saw a lion headed face/maybe goddess... being accompanied by the iconography of the divine hasn't happened since the early days...